In sickness and weakness

ARE you facing a difficult time at present because of the uncertainty in life?

When we see our weakness in the midst of crisis, anxiety and fear crawl into our system.

Challenges against sickness and death are the main issues we are facing these days.
How to deal with this situation in life could either make or break you.

A year before I got married, I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer. I thought that was the end of me. I remembered that I broke into painful tears in front of my fiancée because he was the first one who knew the bad news.

In fact, I offered him the courtesy not to pursue the wedding and find another woman to marry instead. But he had proven to be man enough to validate his commitment of love to me and we got married after my medical procedure.

I went through radiation therapy and by God’s grace, I was healed and declared free from cancer.

After being a cancer survivor for 10 years, the cancer came back. It was the same year when President Corazon Aquino and well-known actor Rudy Fernandez died because of cancer.

I remembered at that time that I had to know that there were four tumors in my lungs — all were cancerous. I had nobody with me at that time to cry on. I tried to be composed in front of the doctor.

Deep inside me, questions were lined up one by one. I want answers to all my
uncertainties: How many months or day will I live and how will I tell my husband and my little daughter about it. The doctor could not give definitive answers.

True indeed because the power to tell how long will I live and die only belongs to God.
I left the doctor’s clinic with tears on my face. I felt so weak both physically and emotionally.

Though I am not afraid to die, I was worried about what will happen to my daughter when I die in her early years. I was anxious because of the uncertainty of what life will bring me after that day.

When I came back to my senses I realized that I was not alone. I talked to God in prayer and presented to him all the questions in my mind. I surrendered to him all those things that tried to rob my sanity and declared that my life is his whether in life or death.

I appealed to him to give me peace in that time of turmoil. In a silent and personal way, God impressed in my mind that my sickness will not lead to death but an honor to him.

Two months of medical procedure for iodine radiation therapy and series of scanning were given to me. During this period, my family, friends, church mates, and even people whom I didn’t know but knew my situation prayed for me.

When my husband and I went back to Saint Luke’s Medical Hospital, where I got my medical treatment, we were waiting too long to hear the whole body scan result, therapy only to find out that even the doctors could not believe that my tumors were gone!

When apostle Paul asked God for help at his weakest point in life God answered him in the Bible (NLT) I Corinthians 12: 9, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.”

So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses so that the power of Christ can work through me.

I won’t live forever here on earth, death will surely come. But one thing I know, that God answers prayers for healing and I am a living witness to this.

Truly, in time of weakness, whether in life or death, God’s peace and power is our way to carry on.

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